Sometimes I wonder if you think the same way I do about you. About how what I have with you is like nothing else I have ever had with anyone else. However, I have time still to find that, and hope that there is something more amazing than you out there. I totally believe it is possible. Even right now I have great, huge hope that what I am working with now will be better than you. But still, WHY do I still feel this strongly? WHYTHEFUCKDOI? I don't want to be stuck here. I have been ready and I am SO ready for the next step.

Ive had this revelation about my life recently, about where I am headed and what I am passionate about. With that, I didn't have the desire to tell you, like, at all. I had the desire to tell my best friend, and the boy who cares about me more than anyone else has in a LONG time. I am happy. I am so incredibly hopeful about my future its insane. However, I wonder more often than I'd like to admit if you wonder about me the same way I wonder about you. If you have found something that has ever compared to what we've had. I know you've had more serious things than I have, but still, I have no idea what goes on in your brain anymore. I don't know if you had the same anxiety yet intense excitement like I had when we visited.

UHG. THIS IS DUMB.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sWestNF1Ihw