It's Been A Long Time

Since I've been had properly. But I don't want to be had just for the hell of it. Which is why whenever some guy shows me he wants me, I'm never quite into it. I don't want sex without Love, and love enhances sex. I'm a tease for kissing you all. But I never kept from any that I was still a virgin. I say it outright. Before anything even happens. I don't want to give you any false hopes, though I am sure my other actions do. And because I know what I want means I may never get what I want. I can say I know the poetical that is in Love, especially combined with sex. I can admit I have been close to it. Touched it. Lost it. That poetical gives me such hope its unbelievable. Such lust and passion that will be unquenchable till that marvelous day.