A Change of Attitude

The shift from the way I used to take it all personally and take on the feeling of rejection as a piece of myself to being someone who can let go is taking place! I don't want to get too far ahead of myself an give myself too much credit yet, but I feel the change occurring in me. I've been at the crossroads, seen down each path, and taken the one with far less baggage when I usually try and lug as many emotions as I can down the other path, which by the way is all uphill. The thing is though, that choice was just on a minor issue. Though I was really excited, I wasn't necessarily invested emotionally in this issue. Which makes me fear when other bigger issues come to a divide and I do end up feeling horribly rejected and lead on as the case may be, that I will have a much harder time deciding, and tumble up the wrong path, and end up tangled in the baggage I brought along with me, the emotions I packed while excited for this new adventure.

Catiy really gave me a good lesson in this, her always being busy or forgetting she had prior plan, bless her heart. The whole, 'If I really love this person, I won't get upset because what is that really helping?' I am exceptionally thankful to her for all the life lessons she taught me unintentionally, and for showing me the truest friendship I have ever had, and of course continue to have. Wah wah wah.